transitions and disruptions

i’ve been honest from the start
telling you what i can and can not give

we have so little to share
but we enjoy the company

i check constantly
reminding you of who i am
and who i am not

you assure me your eyes are open
you assure me you understand

but every time i say good night
i feel your heart sinking

you seem to silently beg me
to let you stay tonight

i can’t be that for you
and i’ve told you from the beginning

i am not what you have in mind
when you are dreaming

how can i make it any clearer
when you nod your head
with your hands cupped tightly over your ears?