recently i got an email from someone i just met starting off with “I know where i ‘know’ you from”. now to some people these words may not make you nervous, but for me, experience has told me that what follows these words can be a bit embarrassing or even stressful.

in this case, it was a case of them seeing a personals ad i had put up several months back. which immediately strikes fear in my heart of, oh crap, which ad did they read? was it the one right after i broke up with M that i wrote from a place of pure sexually frustration? no! no! please gawd not that one. or was it the long-winded, wordy, geeky one? ack!

emails like this remind me of one of the reasons i decided not to put up anymore craigslist ads. i know this is not true for all people, but with one amazing and completely different circumstances exception, all other experiences of people whom i have met through the online genre have had less than favorable endings.

thankfully, they seemed to like my ad, even referring to it as “fabulous.” but please tell me what “I almost answered it, but didn’t.” means? am i that scary? intimidating? .laughs hysterically. the thought of any of these things being true for anyone else is beyond comprehension. i am such a shy, dork. i fidget constantly, talk nervously and blush uncontrollably when i like someone. one of my chosen family recently reminded me that anyone can be seen as one of the “cool kids” in the right light. i guess that is true, but ack! i’m just silly, awkward me, plugging along the best i can like the rest of us.