transitions and disruptions

tonight was . . . interesting. putting me in bar space is always a precarious scenario. i am forced to deal with drunk people and loud people and people who seem to loose there concept of personal space. most people think i don’t drink. socially it is a rarity. my reasons for this are myriad. i definitely gained some insight into all this work i have been doing on myself.

but tonight was also full of some incredibly talented, quite inspirational performers. i am so very blessed to have experienced Blacque Butterfly. she has definitely inspired me, reminding me why it is i am doing my Ph.D. and reinforced my belief that writing keeps me sane.

tonight, i was thankful for my friends. i was also thankful that i’ve learned skills to take care of myself when my boundaries are being crossed, including knowing how to gracefully remove myself from a given situation.

i am blessed with someone in my life who understands the importance of checking in. they might not, however, understand the significance it holds. the gravity of this simple act is hard to explain. but for me this simple act has had the amazing effect of mending many tattered experiences.

so tonight was mixed. i don’t know how else to explain it.